right now, im at the worst point of my life..
i just cant understand why i kept brooding about the past.. everything like, came flooding into my mind? fark it man.. im trying to erase all the shit away, and be a different person..
sorry for the all the mood swings.. right from the beginning of the year. i think i've done many bad things.. which i didnt realise. everything that happened was all my fault, and i had attitude problem.. i hope that i can just die soon, like in a car crash or smth.. cuz i dont wanna commit suicide. at least if i die in a car crash or smth, it wouldn't be my fault at all.. and everything will be over. seriously i've tried my best, cuz maybe some things aren't my fault at all but it bacame mine. afterall, ntg is fair in this world. at least you may feel better and i will learn smth out of it. who knows? maybe i have alr learnt smth out of all these shit in my life.. rmb what ms ow had said, to find the rainbow in the pile of shit.. hope i will get over all all these soon.. before i even die if i really am going to. maybe it's the wrong choices that you make in life.. like trusting the wrong pple? yah.. i think it's the wrong choices that i had made.. sorry..